Wow, double digits !
You have been so excited for this birthday, although composed like a young lady…not overly giddy, like a little girl.
I, on the other hand have been secretly hoping that time would slow down….just a little bit.
Of course, I am also very excited to celebrate a day just for YOU with our family, but I guess I look at birthday’s a little differently since becoming a Mother.
You see, as a Mom, it’s sometimes hard to let go.
When I say let go, I’m referring to letting go of the fact that you aren’t a baby anymore…you, my dear, are becoming an amazing young lady !
With growing up, comes independence. And as much as I want you to be more independent, it’s hard for me to learn how to slowly give that to you.
I promise, you will understand what I’m talking about someday when you become a Mom…really.
It seems like yesterday when I would hold you in my arms and sing to you while doing squats.
You loved the motion, so I would keep doing them until my leg muscles burned and you were finally fast asleep, sweaty against my chest, ready to be moved into to your crib.
You never did like to be separated from me, since the day you came home from the hospital.
Your brother wasn’t like this, so it wasn’t something I expected, or something that I expected to last all day, everyday.
As much as I loved always holding you, it was certainly hard to find a moment to do much else, but the the housework could wait and the laundry could pile up.
I had my first baby daughter and I was overjoyed.
Looking back, I am happy you were fiercely vocal about not wanting to be put down, as I cherish “our moments”…I always will.
So 10 years have passed and I can’t even believe it.
Gone are the days of dressing like a Princess, tiaras and fairy wands.
They’ve been replaced with “Mom, can you do my hair” and “do you know where my skinny jeans are ??”
And it’s all good and exciting, and I am so proud of the young lady you are becoming.
I’m learning to let go a little.
You are such a wonderful daughter and I love that you still reach for my hand and hold it so contently, even in front of your friends.
And your unexpected hugs always warm my heart.
You are a special, sweet, smart, caring, lovely, kind-hearted young lady and Daddy and I are so very proud of you.
So happy 10th birthday Elle Michaela, I am so very blessed and happy to be your Mama.
I love you now and always.
I made this sign for Elle for her bedroom…hoping she believes what it says each time she reads it.
Elle, through the years….